I turned my back toward him and pretended to sleep. It is just a matter of a few seconds, he will hold me and apologize.

How long has it been? 5-10 minutes I am sure, in a few seconds he will hold me tight and kiss me good night.

Oh, my god! What was that, my chest. My god someone’s pinching me. It hurts, my arm is hurting now. I want to yell, am I yelling. Why can’t he hear me?

I feel light headed now as if I am floating.. There he is, why is he patting my cheeks and yelling out my name. I am standing right here. Am I dreaming?

 

This time, I won’t turn, I won’t hold her and say I am sorry. We made a pact that we will never fall asleep angry but a one off is alright. I am sure in a few seconds she will hold me and apologize for today. Is she turning, yes she is turning I can feel the movement on the bed. Seems unusual, though, did she say something? I am sure I heard something.

“Seema, you asleep? Baby.. did you say something?”

Nothing… I am sure she is awake and doing this on purpose, anyway, I will try sleeping now.

…Why is it so bright in the morning, I wake up before the alarm every day. Either Seema buys new curtains or we change sides while sleeping. Why is Seema still in the same position, I saw her last?

“Seema, get up. You’ll be late to work.”

Still nothing? something is wrong. Why is she so lifeless? She is not breathing, My god!! Is there a heartbeat? Is there a heartbeat? A pulse.. oh god.. Seema, what happened. I love you Seema wake up.

 

“Seema”

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